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I’m taking a break from this blog for an indefinite amount of time while I channel my verbal and visual diarrhoea else where.
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Wow. The most exciting F1 race EVER.

My computer’s crashed so don’t expect any updates for a while!

I have had endless debates in my head whether surgery was for me or not. I know it’s still early and I’m not to graduate till 2011 and that deciding which speciality I want a career in is not just dependent on my interest but also the availability of training jobs and opportunities. But it was the decision whether I wanted to go down the medical route or the surgical route that was doing my head in. I can’t help being such a ‘planner’,  I just feel as though I need to prepare myself and find out more about the relevant specialities and gear myself up for whatever obstacles that may come if I decide that yes I want to be a surgeon.

But today, I aimed to be a good president to the badminton club and I hope I have achieved that. For various occasions today I had to be firm with my decision but very fair and I think I achieved that! It was scary being in charge and afraid that people would take offence but I had the authority and I decided that I should use it – for the benefit of the team. I just really want the team to share the same vision as I do and that they understand the meaning behind my actions. It was satisfying that for the first time since I played badminton at this university we’ve finally had a proper training session today with footwork and drills. It took a lot of effort on my part to try plan a programme that would be sufficient yet not boring. An hour of drills really isn’t a lot, and when people complain about boredom and tiredness it frustrates me because when we were kids back home we trained a million times harder than that and we never complained! I suppose trying to teach univerisity ‘kids’ the proper way to train isn’t as easy as it seems. Especially when people don’t see you as a proper coach. But you know, I try my best. I don’t HAVE to do this, but I do this anyway in hope that people will benefit and that would help improve the club’s standard.

It’s amazing. I play better singles when I don’t train. It’s disappointing when two weeks in a row you skip classes, play hard and play well and win your matches but the team doesn’t win!!! :( And I even have a friction burn on my wrist from diving for a shot. And we don’t even get burgers after home matches now! We used to get sponsored by Bar One and have nice juicy burgers awaiting us after our home match but now we have plain old jacket potato. Hokay I’m being fussy. :) I should be thankful I didn’t have to make dinner.

I spent 2 hours studying in the library after Bar One (I love studying, I am such a nerd) and then went for a meeting that was meant to be very exciting but people pissed me off because we were suppose to come up with constructive ideas on fundraising but they were talking about getting people to wrestle chimps. ?????!!!!??? I was giving ideas like bakesale and what not but when I said, why don’t we sell shot glasses – they shot my idea down in like.. 0.000000000000000001 second saying “No one would buy a shot glass without a shot” Erm. Okay, but like, you mean, honestly, you want to get people to wrestle a CHIMPANZEEE????? OMG. Some people. I gave up talking to them after that and went to give ideas on Publicity.

Sorry I’m being very angsty and bitchy (looks at previous entry) but I think my period is coming so I have the right to be PMS-ey. yay.

Anyway while D is out in Bath on his initiation – and probably getting drunk, I am enjoying a glass of rosé in my quiet room. I decided against going out tonight with the badminton gang to Corp because I am recovering from that Influenza virus I caught I probably should rest (yes, yesterday I self-diagnosed after reading a whole chapter on Respiratory disease at Jess’s house – although flu isn’t exactly the hardest diagnosis. But anyway speaking of Jess’s house – her house is a FREEZER. I had to wrap myself in 2 blankets; believe it or not, since they have moved in in July they haven’t had their heating on. That is MADNESS. My heater is turned on every day :) Okay okay I feel guilty about my carbon footprint, but.. BUT! I like feeling warm :) and I get cold fingers and feet really easily!)

Oh D just called! He isn’t getting drunk after all haha. Being a good boy and got back home early!

I’m sick but I can still bitch. I love my sister – if there is anyone in the world who would listen to my bitching, laugh at me, make me laugh and totally understand my sentiments, it has to be my baby sister.

I started to get graphic and compared people with wooden sticks and potato chips. I was very bitchy. And she laughed.

“you know you’re incredibly amusing when you’re trying to be mean coz you ARE SO NOT MEAN”

I try.

Anyway, second day spent home cuz I’m not fit for hospital. (haha – fit for hospital??) But I still have to arrange meetings because people need me to help make decisions. Bah.

The lack of activity of my blog reflects how busy I have been. Also, my health has been rubbish. Last night I was kept awake by my cough for nearly 2 hours. I woke up this morning and was startled at the time it was – 1130am! Odd for me because I don’t usually wake up that late. But it was nice to have a lie in, especially since my body needs rest. I hate being sick, this disease I has been loitering around for nearly weeks now :(

Badminton has been stressing me out because people haven’t been behaving like a team and it’s been really hard to get a good team out to go for competition – sometimes I feel as tough I am wasting my effort. I am trying to take it easy now especially since my exams are coming in a month and a bit and I need to focus on my work. It’ll be really nice to see Jan jie this Friday though :) I’ll be skipping a local league match to hang out with her but I’m not bothered – I need some time to spend with a good friend! And next week Yongsheng’s visiting for the day – oh i feel loved :)

It’s funny sometimes you feel lonely when you know you’re not quite alone. Maybe it’s when you’re sick that you feel the extra need for some more loving. Anyhoos! Can’t believe the weekend is nearly over – I should really get started on cooking dinner, Laura is coming over for dinner :) I’m going to try a new recipe,hope that turns out nice!!

Dreams tells you something.

So the dream I had last night must be a sign?

Big sorry to all the people I promised emails and calls! I’ve been buried in work and commitment I even find it hard to find time to sit down, spend time with myself and relax! Just because I don’t contact you doesn’t mean I don’t miss or think about you! It’s just hard with the whole time difference and all to call or sms and emails are just.. impossible seeing how little time I have to spend online.

Not long after handing in my 2000word essay, I have another to write up on – which means more research and more papers to critic, which means less time to revise, which means.. more stress! In addition we’re just about to start badminton season so.. more stress! And first badminton social this Wednesday.. that’d be fun but that also means.. stress cuz I have less time for work! Ahhh weekend! Come quickly!!

Perhaps this weekend I will actually make it to Bath!

On a very exciting note, today was a very productive day. I did many many ECGs, lots and lots of bloods, did histories and examinations and I did my first two cannulas today and the last patient told me I did it brilliantly and it didn’t hurt as bad as she thought it would! (It’s always nice when patients complement you, that means you really have done a good job) On a less exciting note, I was with the crash team today and I had to run across the hospital when Rick’s bleep went off only to see a patient die. It was very upsetting but the poor lady was so old, she wouldn’t have had a great prognosis even if they revived her. And I went to the mortuary for the first time and watch Rick palpate another body to make sure he had no pacemakers. It’s weird, doctors here get paid an extra 70 pounds for filling in cremation forms. Anyway, i need some sleep now.. soo goodnight!

Chrysanthemum tea with ginseng for me because I am tired and falling ill.

My week zooms by and I always never seem to have enough time to do all the things that I want to do. Things like.. revision and sleep! Friday was spent at the Octagon giving out a 1000 flyers to promote our badminton club at the sports fair.

Drove 2 hours after we were done at 4pm to go see my baby sister at Warwick Uni.

Passed her a box & luggage full of her things. And also to collect my red shoes and perfume which I got her to bring over for me. She’s got an amazing room with a lovely view - I was pretty impressed! We went shopping the next day at Ikea and the city centre, and my car came in very very hand seeing how much stuff we bought for baby’s room that day!

I would have loved to stay another night and spend more time with baby but I was pretty knackered and seeing that I was probably coming down with something I knew I needed to get home and get proper sleep in my big comfy double bed with 6 pillows (+ two new cushions) :) (you can see I am a pillow-person)

So today I will take it easy and hopefully feel much better by tomorrow!